This kind of sucks.

A few days ago the girl who I have been hanging out with told me that she felt that things were moving too quickly and that she really wanted to be single. I am not going to complain about how I feel about that statement but rather I am going to talk about just how I feel about the whole thing.

I do not have a problem with what she wants, because I actually care about her enough that I want her to be happy, but at the same time I cannot help but feel like I have become the whipping boy for all females who have had bad previous relationships. She was involved with someone for a long time, and I completely understand why she would want to be single, but I do feel left out in the cold.

I have been lying to myself when I say that I am over her completely. I am not. I sometimes wish that she would hit me up, and tell me that she has changed her mind and made a mistake because I would forgive and forget in a minute, but I know that will probably not happen.

I only dated her for about two months, but sometimes you know when you found the person that is worth keeping. As much as I want to be mad at her, I can't be. She is still a great woman, and any man would be lucky to have her.

I made a new mix, appropriately titled "The Rejection Mix." There is nothing in there that is degrading to her at all, but it really focuses on how I usually feel when this happens, from sad, to angry, to ready to go dance my pain away. I think it is one of my better mixes; not perfect, but the flow I am trying to convey (subconsciously) has been acheived. I hope you like it and it is about an hour long. It is on this blog to the right. Let me know what you think.